"I am finding out that maybe I was wrong, that maybe I have fallen down and can't do this alone. Please don't go now, please don't fade away... My heart is yours."

I am tired. I am tired of hiding. I am tired of being an idiot. I am tired of being an asshole. I am simply tired of this childish way of approaching my life, and as far as I am concerned, it has ended.

I am sick of being pushed apart and telling myself that it is for the best. I am sick of trying to tell myself that something is outrageous or meaningless simply because someone else says so. I am sick of not being true to myself in situations that matter to me simply because it would be a social faux pas from someone else's perspective to assert my own opinion.

I don't know how the image of myself changed from someone I liked to someone I wouldn't be friends with. Have I been living with my eyes closed? Where went my introspection? Where went my humility? Where went my comprehension and concern for the concerns of others? Where went my understanding of the line between being outspoken and being obnoxious?

I want my magic back. I want my wild dreams and my quirky interests. I want to keep looking for understanding. I want my emotions to come back to me rather than constantly trying to keep up with the people around me. I want a day of feeling secure in my skin again.

I want my heart and soul to feel beautiful again.